Friday, August 13, 2004
eVeR wOnDeR hOw hArD iT iS tO hOld bAcK uR tEaRs?
see the title u shd noe tt tis will be a emotional post again...writing for both days...

12th of august...another unforgetable day...woke up at 7.30...went to sch n had GDIT practical...the whole lesson learn quite a lot...after tt...i went to meet weili they all so tt we can go n send mr maxx off...reached there abt 1+...ard 2 +...we set off...everyone was slience...i tink everyone has a lot in their mind...when we reached the place...i tink it is 'guang ming shan'...mr maxx was cremated...on the trip back...everyone did not speak another word...some of the gals cried...but the guys was like stunned or jus having tinkings in their mind...i was tinking back on a lot memories tt i shared with mr maxx...trying to hold back my tears...so i jus remain quiet...after tt...all went home...when i reached home...did nth much...at abt 12+...when my whole family were sleeping...i took out my photoalbum...n start viewing all of them...tinking abt those memories again...i always do tt when i m sad or getting emotional....when i saw the pic with mr maxx n i...i suddenly jus stunned there n stare at the pic for quite a long time...i was tinking to myself....how can someone so kind n helpful jus go like tt?...m i dreaming everytink?...will it all disappear when i woke up tml?...after much tinking...i fell asleep...

13th of august...today woke up at 6...hav to do tis OC powerpoint...so meet with my friend early to do it...after tt rushed to WEBP tutorial...then had a 30mins break...after tt...went for MORG lecture b4 GDIT lecture...after tt we had lunch...did the powerpoint again...after tt went for OC..b4 tt...we went into the class n hc went to use the com...then the cleaner say we r not allow to do tt...n she took our names...say if com spoil will look for us...after tt...we had OC...presented out powerpoint...everytink was ok...then had DBMS tutorial...nth much...then i went home alone...when i was on the train...tzi yun called mi n tell mi to look behind...n the 3 gals were there...did not see them...b4 they call mi...i was tinking of stuffs...recently i hav been tinking abt mr maxx when ever i was alone...after they called mi...i can sae they did a really great job cheering mi up...although they dunnoe la...they realli cheer mi up...thx...if not for them...my poly life will not be as colourful as now...realli grateful to them...of coz to the guys in my class too...some of them of coz...some realli pissed mi off sumtimes...but they r ok...maybe it is jus becoz of recent events....anyway...i went home n did nth much...so i came n write tis post...

anyway...i guess i shd not keep tinking abt mr maxx too much...i hav to move on...although i will remember him...tinking of him too much may affect myself or ever ppl ard mi...i dun want tt to happen....esp to ppl ard mi....rite now...we can't bring a dead person back to life...so we had to treasure those tt is living now...n i realli mean TREASURE...wat happen is a very gd example...i did not see mr maxx like 2 months n he suddenly jus passed away...haiz...so we shd all moved on n try to say nice tinks to ppl ard u everyday...i hav seen tis msg from sumwhere...wat will happen if u noe tt the last sentence tt u told ur loved ones when they r gone is tt u hate them?....TREASURE LIFE PPL...N PPL ARD U!!!

it's so bubblicious 10:14 PM